baaaaaad day

[alice-acid]

im sure there is a bad day thread somewhere but i can't find it. as you might have guessed im having a TERRIBLE DAY!!! i really considered myself hppdless for a very long time too, then i had an almighty hangover after works christmas do and my symptoms have been yo-yoing ever since. hopefully they will die down again but there is nothing worse than knowing how close to freedom i was and the idea that i seem to be on the way to becoming a total mess again. BLARG

[China]

I'm really sorry to hear that your hppd is getting worse, ): but I think I've got the remedy for a bad day

[China]

http://m.youtube.com/watch?v=gH476CxJxfg

Just keep smiling a smile always makes things a little better

[alice-acid]

venting helps haha!

[Aaaaa]

Hey Alice, as you said you considered yourself HPPD free at some point.

You HAVE to remember that your brain is fragile, and can't handle drugs the same way anymore.

If it went away before, it'll go away again.

Keep your hopes up and I promise you'll feel right as rain again.

[jimmyb84]

Sorry, but to be perfectly honest, I don't feel any sorrow for you. Of course abusing alcohol is gonna make shit spike or worsen. ......isn't rocket science!!

In saying that I do hope you learn from this and get back to where you were prior.

[StateOfRegret]

Sorry to hear that, alice, hope it's been a learning experience.

 

jimmyb84: True, it was a stupid move, but willpower isn't always available when you need it

[alice-acid]

..  yeah thanks jimmy for your helpful kind words, i am aware it wasn't a good idea OBVIOUSLY. if you haven't got anything nice to say then say nothing at all . i like to hope that on this message board i would receive no judgement for my actions, what with most people here abusing drink at drugs at some point. 

 

and thanks guys i am sure it will get better again and i wont be making that mistake again!

[StateOfRegret]

Iif you haven't got anything nice to say then say nothing at all . i like to hope that on this message board i would receive no judgement for my actions.

I like to think of it a bit like a family I mean, if you do something stupid or something detrimental to your own health, you expect your family to offer their honest opinion as well as comfort you. A bit of both is good, I think  

 

Anyway, I'm sure brighter times lie ahead!

[Aaaaa]

Hey Alice, I feel ya on the mistakes, and it's okay.

I find myself feeling better somedays and then drink too much and end up feeling dissociated and having visuals much worse in the following days.

I always feel much better when I remain entirely sober. Like MUCH better. I feel free.

We are only human, we make mistakes.

Don't feel bad, and don't stress over it.

Both of those are super important for recovery =)

[jimmyb84]

Sorry Alice, but I say it like I see buddy.!

No judgement for your actions.....?

Ok, next time you do something stupid ill bake you a cake and tell you good work!!

Maybe next time you think about getting drunk you will remember that dick jimmyb84 who gave you a serve last time and you will stop yourself.

Honesty always best policy

I'm nasty cause i give a shit about you!

[alice-acid]

yeah i think to expect no judgement was a bit stupid i was just not feeling too great then, or now haha. i think my drinking days are now also going to have to be over. i cant do any of the fun stuff any more