does everyone hate me?

[raincat]

i swear to god i know what everyone thinks about me

[brake]

dude I have the same fears and a lot of times I'm proven wrong

It's hard for me because I'm used to being popular in high school and college lol but yeah adult life would be different anyway without disorders 

Edited September 25, 2024 by brake

[Fawkinchit]

Probably not

[Jay]

Certainly not on here! Love your cat posts 

I used to think that no one must like me because I didn't like myself... But life has taught me that I was wrong, a lot of people invite me to things and go out of their way to spend time with me. It was all just paranoia on my part. 

[brake]

6 hours ago, Jay1 said:

Certainly not on here! Love your cat posts 

I used to think that no one must like me because I didn't like myself... But life has taught me that I was wrong, a lot of people invite me to things and go out of their way to spend time with me. It was all just paranoia on my part. 

I love everyone here

[yarkadin]

Much love to Raincat, Brake and other HPPD brothers and sisters on this forum.  No hate here... that is reserved exclusively for those that deserve it

[Fawkinchit]

6 hours ago, brake said:

I love everyone here

This, we are all suffering or have suffered, tremendously in way that other people without this condition wont ever understand. 

[brake]

1 hour ago, Fawkinchit said:

This, we are all suffering or have suffered, tremendously in way that other people without this condition wont ever understand. 

Exactly

[raincat]

On 9/25/2024 at 9:30 AM, raincat said:

i swear to god i know what everyone thinks about me

Aww thanks those who replied I love this community

Edited September 28, 2024 by raincat

[brake]

On 9/27/2024 at 4:31 AM, Jay1 said:

Certainly not on here! Love your cat posts 

I used to think that no one must like me because I didn't like myself... But life has taught me that I was wrong, a lot of people invite me to things and go out of their way to spend time with me. It was all just paranoia on my part. 

You're lucky dude I realized the older I get the more I'm the first one to reach out to people and try. People stopped going out of their way to spend time with me. Only family really sticks with me. I'm actually bitter and resentful about it. Obviously I still have some friends but it's not as much as I'd expect from my brothers and sisters.

A lot of people I know died from drug overdoses or drug complications, accidents and street violence. It has not been the same since the 2020s. I mean a few years a go a bunch of my friends showed up on my birthday just for me but that was like 2019.

Edited September 29, 2024 by brake

[Jay]

One factor that might be involved is a lot of my mates don't have kids... so we have more free time to meet up. The friends I have who have kids, i need to push hard to see them.

[holly]

We all love you  

[brake]

5 hours ago, Jay1 said:

One factor that might be involved is a lot of my mates don't have kids... so we have more free time to meet up. The friends I have who have kids, i need to push hard to see them.

Yes the kids made it much harder lol.

[brake]

On 9/25/2024 at 9:30 AM, raincat said:

i swear to god i know what everyone thinks about me

Even on this forum sometimes I feel like I'm intruding or it's like damn it's this guy again. He thinks he's helping and being good and researching but he's so annoying

[Jay]

12 hours ago, brake said:

Even on this forum sometimes I feel like I'm intruding or it's like damn it's this guy again. He thinks he's helping and being good and researching but he's so annoying

haha you do the work so we don't have to! Our very own ChatHPPD

[brake]

6 hours ago, Jay1 said:

haha you do the work so we don't have to! Our very own ChatHPPD

[brake]

Sometimes I imagine people's faces and I feel like they have so much hate and disgust for me lol but it could be just my trippy imagination because I have like genuine good moments with people.

[Jay]

I've got a genuine love and affinity for everyone who posts on here. We've had the odd troll here and there, but this is a really amazing forum of people doing the best they can to help each other under the toughest conditions. 

[Spartan]

On 9/25/2024 at 11:30 PM, raincat said:

i swear to god i know what everyone thinks about me

To be honest I don't think I've interacted with you so much or read  that many for your posts unfortunately.

I'm sure everyone admires and respect you on here very much  ! 

I find that sometimes my own mind can be my worst enemy, what I mean is that it can be the nature of the mind to create something out of nothing. I E. thinking too much or irrational thinking.

I remember when I was just a boy and a mentor always used to say "what other people think of me is none of my business, it's what I think of me that counts and that's all that counts"  lol 

It kind of stuck.. 

I guess We all have a human need to be liked and to fit in to some extent tho I find we also have a human need to be unique special and different. This can sometimes create conflict with others rules, beliefs , values , standard or how they believe they should conduct themselves etc.... ops sorry I think I may have been channeling my inner Tony Robbins for a moment there lol 

Anyhow I'm just rambling on @ the end of the day im sure I like you very much !!! 

Edited December 12, 2024 by Spartan

[AF44]

On 10/2/2024 at 12:39 PM, brake said:

Even on this forum sometimes I feel like I'm intruding or it's like damn it's this guy again. He thinks he's helping and being good and researching but he's so annoying

Never!! Xoxo